if i had a boyfriend or crush that lived in a different city than me (just for the record i have neither a bf or crush in the dallas metroplex either) or was going to be out of town for a long time i would want him to send me this song on a cd mix.


so this past week has been full. full of emotions, people, conversations, Jesus, tears, anxiety, my wyldlife team, cleaning...and the list could continue. please pray for my heart.

today when i walked in the young life office for the first time since hearing the news that hp young life will no longer exist after the next two weeks i just wanted to cry and walk right back out the door. not sure why though, i just couldnt put a word to the feeling.

i went up to the office to start cleaning out my stuff. and seven years of yl staff causes one to accumulate a lot of stuff. but really, i just wanted an excuse to go up to the office. since i dont really have any office work to do up there anymore, i dont have any reason to go up to the royal central tower floor 6. but, i miss my friends up there. i miss the chatter and the laughing and the strutting when someone wins ping pong.

as i was going through files and folders i came across the monthly reports from when i was on student staff and an intern in knoxville. each month the staff searched their heart, reflected, and shared what was going on in life. sometimes it was short and sweet, sometimes it was how small can i make the type so it can still be read. God used those reports to give my heart life today. i was reminded of the heart of young life. i was reminded that people in ministry still go through junk. i was reminded of what it is like to be living life with kids who are hurting. i was reminded of friends who i hadnt talked to in years and how what they thought of me used to be so much a part of how i found my worth. i was reminded of girls i was so heartbroken for and have lost touch with. i was reminded of what it is like to work in community. i was reminded of how immature i was 7-8 years ago. i was reminded that God is tender. i was reminded that God is faithful. i was reminded that God is really really good. i was reminded that God loves me. i was reminded that God called me to ministry. i was reminded that He has taken good care of me in life. and i dont want to forget these things as i head into this next season of life.

rob pats.

what is happening to the best head of hair on the planet?

check out the article about it HERE.


nutella bread pudding

i think i am going to try making this tomorrow as a treat while i watch the boys perform on american idol.

Individual Nutella Bread Puddings
5 cups cubed challah or brioche bread (approx 1/2 loaf)
2 cups milk
2 large eggs
1/2 cup Nutella
2 tbsp cocoa powder
1 tsp vanilla extract
1/2 cup chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 375F. Lightly grease six 6-oz ramekins.
In a large bowl, whisk together milk, eggs, Nutella, cocoa powder and vanilla until very smooth. Add in cubed bread and turn gently with a spatula to coat. Let stand for 5 minutes to allow bread to soak up some of the liquid. Gently fold in chocolate chips.
Use a large spoon to evenly distribute the pudding mixture between the prepared ramekins. Place ramekins on a baking sheet (you may want to line it with aluminum foil to catch any drips).
Bake for 20-25 minutes, until puddings are puffed set.
Cool for 10 minutes before serving. Puddings may deflate slightly as they cool.

Makes 6

tory burch

isnt her house lovely? i just adore all of the patterns and colors so much!

liberty of london+target=love

i am kind of dying for this bike to cruise around town on, especially with a little basket on the front. i will take it to whole foods and hp village and chuys and the pearl cup.

and here is a peek at more of the goods. dont they look awesomely chic.

march 13 all these and more will be available at your local target.


who is the cutest?

check it out HERE.

a lot has gone on in my professional life in the past few days. for the last 7 years i have been in full time ministry with young life. wednesday i found out that due to lack of funding my area is being shut down at the end of february. so, the only job i have known since i graduated college is ending...abruptly.

my heart is broken. broken for volunteer leaders who have given their life away for years faithfully. broken for high school and middle school kids that dont know Jesus. broken for the loss of community i experience in my office daily. broken for a community that is dying although it looks perfect from its manicured lawns, luxury cars, and club memberships. broken for the lack of time for closure. broken the way a victim feels, because that is what my boss said me and my coworker, team mate, partner in ministry are in this situation. i am completely broken.

the past few days have been a roller coaster of emotions for me, as one would imagine. i have gone from sadness about loss to excitement about the future to angry at people who have wronged me to loving the people who i have had the privilege to share life with to overwhelming thankfulness in my heart for the love of Jesus to questioning why God works the way He does to right in this very moment of complete exhaustion.

so, for right now the website above brings me a small reminder of what the Lord thinks about me. i hope you know it too.


psalm 13

this is how life feels to me right now.

How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.


all star game.

this is how i got to spend my valentines day night.

and what a fun night it was! i mean does it get any better than jerrys world, celeb sightings (jay z, t.o., eliza dushku, magic johnson & p diddy to name a few) nachos, sweaty basketball players with big muscles, LOTS of very cute spectator boys, 9th row floor seats, alicia keys, usher, & shakira performaces, a buzzer beater win, then top it all off with great life conversations with a good friend? not to me! thank you kristin for such a fun valentines day night!



happy snow day from casa bonita.



dont these photos from SIMPLY BREAKFAST make you want to start the day off right?

who wants to buy me this BOOK by the author of simply breakfast for valentines day? it looks like it is filled with pictures that would inspire to be a more organic, thoughtful, purposeful, noticer of beautiful things, and simpler person.

this is my winter song to you.

the seasons always change
and life will find a way
ill be your harvester of light
and send it out tonight
so we can start again
is love alive
is love alive
is love alive
-sara bareilles & ingrid michaelson

what a beautiful picture of life with Jesus.

(pics taken via iphone quad photo this morning in my front yard. dallas, tx)


"Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick."
-Matthew 9:12

why do i spin my wheels to try to be so well, so perfect?



and barefoot laying in the grass on a warm day.


anywhere you go, i will follow...

and no, i am not talking about the gilmore girls (that is their theme song. check it out HERE) what i am talking about is following oh and the world spins madly on aka my blog!
i love blogging and know there are readers out there, i see the counter creep up each day, but i dont know who most of you are. dont be ashamed! so, if you do find it in your heart, i would love it if you would follow my blog or leave comments.
also, blogs can get advertisers (how cool!) and it is all based on comments and followers and how many people visit. so, help a sister out, financial times are tough :)
for real though, thank you for reading the blog. it gives me life to have an outlet where i am totally 100% who God made me to be and i can share the good, the ugly, the petty, and the tender parts of my heart.
and since gilmore girls is about a mother and daughter i cant help but think about and miss my own mom this morning. isnt she the cutest:

i sure think so.


bow ties...swoon.

i just love a guy in a bow tie.

and then there is probably my favorite bow tie guy:

kitchen chairs.

i would love different chairs in all different colors around my kitchen table. here is some of my inspiration:


"not only will insecurity cheat us of reaching and then operating consistently at maximum potential, it also will turn our coworkers into threats and trap us into becoming posers. it will chase us to church, where we'll be so distracted by who we know or dont know, where we sit or dont sit, what brand we are or arent wearing, that we probably wont hear three words of the message." -beth moore "so long, insecurity"
a glimpse into my life as a teenager. and a college student. and sometimes as an adult. yuck. yuck. yuck. and for the most part you could say i was chased to my high school cafeteria, the office, friends houses, bars, parks, swimming pools, softball games, young life, the mall, the grocery store, the lake, the beach, and everywhere in between and i was so distracted that not only did i not hear the people around me but also the voice of Jesus in the midst.


my favorite flower is just now coming into season so i will be on the lookout for ranunculus everywhere i go so i can put them in a mason jar in my house.



just a few spring things i am coveting at anthro right now.


new york times.

my pastor is undergoing treatment for brain cancer and the new york times wrote an article about him and how he is trying to "suffer well". i love that phrase...suffer well...it is two opposing words that through Jesus actually go together. if only my heart truly believed in suffering well and the immense love of my Jesus. read the article about matt HERE. please pray for matt and his family, lauren, aubrey, reid, and nora as they journey through trying to suffer well.
i also found these images of the new york times "t" in different mediums. i love the creativity.